Why do I love Nico Yazawa?

Now here’s the facts: I love nico so much. Now this isn’t a valid sentence as I’ve never properly written why i liked nico. I’m here to give yall the tea☕️
Let’s start with my past with Nico and how she became my best girl.
When I started the llsip anime, I thought Nico was a simple meme character, just like most of us. I never really bothered to learn more about her, so I wasn’t interested in her at all. I often think about how Nico became my 2nd best, then best girl. I literally have no idea, so I’ll give you the dumbest reason ever to like a character; your otp involves that character.
Yes, NicoMaki. I’ve been shipping it since summer 2015, aka the year when i watched the llsip anime. They started as a little ship at first, now NicoMaki is my entire life, It means so much for me. But i won’t get into details since this paragraph is supposed to be about nico lmao.
My account was at first, a nicomaki account. Because the ship was really adorable for me, and i wanted to get into the fandom. The more I got into Ll, the more my interest for nicomaki grew. Which caused me to develop a strong attachment to nico, just like how i did with maki.
One day, I saw a Nico’s dad meme. I was like wtf??? And decided to do a research, which resulted in me reading nico’s school idol diary. I was shocked. Because not only I learned about nico nii’s origin for the first time, I also learned Nico’s motive to make people smile. It was her father. I found that rather... impressive. I suddenly felt a warm feeing towards nico that day. Because that school idol diary, It touched my heart. Nico wasn’t just a simple smile character, she was a deeply flawed character who is trying her best even in the worst situations.
I wasn’t satisfied with the information i got from her sid. I read her wiki, I read her solo songs’ lyrics, I checked out her llsif side stories, I did the best research I could that day.
I never admitted the fact that she should be my best girl after that day. I kept it to myself because I thought people would call me a fake fan, for liking her for such a short amount of time. I kept that fact to myself, and moved on. I could only resist for a few weeks.
I can’t remember when she became my best girl, because of the fact that I had to wait before telling it to everyone. My memories are really blurry in general, so that might be why;;
But I remember one thing for sure; when I made Nico my best girl, my view for Love Live, and nico, changed entirely.
Looking at past me, I can definetly say that nico changed me. After that huge research, I wanted to be like nico. No, not in the way you are thinking. I thought to myself that, I shouldn’t give up and try achieving my dreams, just like nico did. I thought to myself that, I should pick my friends carefully, and if i find the right friends, I should care deeply about them, just like nico cared for µ's. I should try hard and do my best in everything I do, just like how nico tried her best to make people smile, and to become the no.1 idol of the universe.
As time passed, I grew more attached to nico. She was literally giving me reasons to live everyday. To get out of bed and do something, she was literally my motive at some point.
Let’s talk about Her confidence— It really made me question myself, “if nico is this confident at being an idol and making people smile, why can’t i be confident at the simplest things?” I asked myself. I ask that question a lot. “But Ela, why are you idolizing a fictional character this much?” I guess everyone reading this will probably ask. Because, when I did that, I had nothing to hold onto. I had no goals in life. I had no one supporting me. Those were hard times. I still don’t know what made me idolize a fictional character this much, I’m still not sure. But, I don’t regret it at all. Nico changed me in a positive way, and I appreciate it. If I’m who I am today, Nico has a big role in that. Thank you, Nico Yazawa, for changing my life.
Now let’s look at why I like nico. I’ll first put a short paragraph I wrote for her at some point; “Nico is a deeply flawed character who hides her true self because every single time she expressed passion for a subject she was shut down and rejected by those she called friends. She cared deeply about her friends, but she was backstabbed. So at first she, treated muse like that until she understood the fact that muse was different. She wanted to be the best idol, even if the world didn’t accept her like that she wanted her siblings to think so, that’s why she said they were backup dancers. (and she told them truth after) If you read her school idol diaries you’ll see how deeply she cares about muse, and her fans. And her “Nico nico nii” was taught to her by her father (who’s not with nico anymore) so she can make the entire world, including herself, smile. Her solo songs are about making the world/her fans smile. “ This is the shortest I can describe my love for Nico. Now Let me Explain everything and give a reason to everything. Nico is a deeply flawed character, she has many flaws, we all can agree. One of her flaws is the fact that how she hides her true self until she feels safe. This often causes Nico to be called a ‘tsundere’. But that’s not true. Because every single time she expressed passion for a subject she was shut down and rejected by those she called friends, which caused her to develop trust issues, which also caused her treat µ's rude when they first talked. It’s 2018, and I still can’t believe people out there are using this as an excuse for hating nico. If you were backstabbed by those you called friends, while you were showing passion for your interests, would you be able to trust someone saying “hey! Wanna join our idol club?” This is what Nico experienced. We can’t blame her for treating µ's rude at first. It’s one of her flaws, which makes her perfect.
Now let’s take a look at another excuse some people use to hate nico; “she called µ's her backup dancers!! Thats unacceptable!!!” Well this is one of her flaws, which also makes her perfect. Let me explain.
I actually find this situation kind of relatable, I remember lying about my success to my younger cousins. It’s kind of a complex, from what I’ve understood. Nico was unable to reach success with her previous ‘friends’, so she thought to herself that µ's was going to be the same, so she wanted her closest family to admire her, and think that she achieved her dreams of successing as an idol. But µ's was different. µ's deeply cared about nico, and her feel that this time she was going tomake her dreams come true. And they achieved their dreams together.
Now I’ll talk about her “Nico Nico Nii!”. It’s not just a simple meme catchphase. It’s a catchphase taught to her by her father, who’s no longer with her. It’s a symbol of her father’s wish, which was Nico making people smile with this catchphase. This was Nico’s only motive for making people smile at first. But the more she used it, the more sincere her feelings became. Or that’s what I’m thinking, since her sincere feelings reached me. “Nico nico nii” is such a powerful catchphase and is full of meaning. It’s a motive, and a way for nico to achieve her dreams and make her father’s wish come true; to make people smile. I smile a lot, which is because of nico, Even if she will never know, I always smile so she can achieve her dream to make people smile, and to be the no.1 idol of the universe.
Not only her fans, Nico deeply cared about µ's as well. As i said previously, µ's helped nico a lot. µ's cared about nico. And nico cared about µ's. There isn’t much to say about this topic. But µ's helped making nico’s dreams come true.
Now I’ll talk about her solo songs. People saying her solo songs are about herself is braindead bye
Nico Puri talks about how nico wants to be pretty, and lovely, so she can make you smile. She wants her fans, and everyone to smile. She wants us to be happy.
Mahoutsukai Hajimemashita (I’ve became a Magician) talks about how she obtained the magic of smile, and she wants us to feel great and happy. She wants us to say goodbye to our tears. She is sending us magic to make us feel happy.
Isn’t this enough proof that nico tries her best to make us smile? How could one hate nico? Come at me with valid reasons I’m ready to prove all your points wrong
I’d like to talk about her personality a little bit more. Even though she’s short for a 3rd year, and looks like a child, she’s actually pretty mature. She helps the first years often, and is seem to be hanging out with them often. She knows the basics of being an idol, and is an idol fan herself. I adore her love for A-RISE tbh, idk its just so nice??? I don’t have the words to describe it.
Now let’s take a look at her appearence. Black pigtails, ribbons, red eyes, short, and very pale skin. I’m a huge fan of black hair and pigtails haha. But like,, nico letting her hair down and nico with nozomi pigtails??? Holy crAp sign me up she is literally the definition of beautiful
Ribbons!!make!!!her!!!super!!!cute!!!and!!!beautiful!!!!!
Red eyes=god i won’t argue further
One of the anime character traits I like is when the character is super short but she is older than she looks. Because i find that very relatable. I’m rlly short myself and I don’t look my age akdhskdk. But besides that, that trait is rlly cute?? Idk why skshskdhdk
Now, a huge topic. Her seiyuu, Sora Tokui (I’ll refer to her as soramaru)
I don’t find a lot of µ's seiyuu content, but when I do, soramaru really catches my eye in everything. Her personality is really cute & her voice is amazing. I’d like to thank her for giving her god tier voice to a god tier character.
Soramaru’s nico voice is.... nico-like. But her voice can get really deep sometimes, and that’s epic!!!! Especially her rap, It’s god tier!!! And her voice in general.... god, is that you?
Changing the topic again. Nico gets the best cards in sif no tea just facts lmao i don’t know how to talk about this but her cards are god tier in general.
I just really love Nico’s personality as a whole. I just love her to bits, every single aspect of her is perfect and you can’t change my mind. I could talk about nico and why I like her for hours and hours but words are just... not enough to describe my love for Nico Yazawa. I’m so happy that she achieved her dreams, and I’m so happy that she became an Idol at first place.
I still tear up when I hear snow halation, or bokuhika. I still get emotional when final live is mentioned. I still want to cry whenever I look at my Snow Halation Nico figure, which is my only piece of merch of her and I tried so hard to obtain it. So, One thing that would make me the happiest person in the world would be to hear her voice again. I talked about this wish of mine in my nico birthday letter. And guess what. All stars nico content. Radio girls nico content. Nico content. New nico content to appreciate. Even the thought of all the future content makes me bring out my uwus?????
I want to be able to support Nico until the end, I don’t know for how long. I know that one day I will no longer like idols. But Nico will always have a special place in my heart. Because she changed my life. She gave me the confidence and happiness I was lacking. She makes me try hard to achieve my goals. Even this essay can’t describe how much I love nico, english is not my native language so words aren’t enough to describe this feeling, this love, this affection I’m feeing towards nico yazawa. It’s not like a crush, but I just want to support her and— ugh I stretched this so much and words aren’t enough at this point. I just want nico yazawa to be happy, she tries so hard to make her fans happy, and I want her to be happy as well. I want to give my full support to her. She is the no.1 idol of the universe, and the no.1 idol of my heart. Nico Yazawa, out of 27 girls in Love live, I chose you to be my best girl. That’s because you affected me positively, and you touched my heart as a passionate idol. I really don’t know how to describe this feeling anymore, I guess I’m out of words. I just want the entire world to know that I love Nico Yazawa so much, and I want to support her forever. Thank you Nico, for being a part of my Life.
-Ela